Lately I have been lusting after “baby pink”. This is not a common occurrence for me, but it’s a colour that my body has been “desiring” lately. It reminds me of years ago when I met a colour energy consultant – not about whether I am a spring, winter, autumn or summer colour person, but more about the energy of the colour and what that could do for me.
The consultation was such, that I wrote down what colours I wore, what ones I didn’t, how often I wore them, when I started wearing them and when I stopped wearing them. To my amazement, the consultant looked at the patterns of my colour choices, and started telling me about my life – in quite vivid detail ….and accurately I must say! She then went on to recommend 2 colours that I could begin to wear and integrate into my life. One was baby pink. I wanted to physically vomit! I don’t know how you can NOT PHYSICALLY vomit, but what I am saying, is that my body had huge resistance to this. I have 4 daughters – each of whom I had never dressed in baby pink. I have never worn that colour in my life and that colour had never appealed to me at all.
BUT…when the consultant started to explain the energy of the colour and the reason for it, I got it! It is about soft compassion and less of the direct and “harder” love and compassion I was giving. It is about the feminine, more intuitive way of being versus the driving and striving. It is not about the proving of myself which I was doing, but the approving of myself which I was not doing. It is about self validation, rather than seeking that in action, goals and external success. It is about the mother-daughter relationship which I was struggling with a little, not knowing why I was pouring out love in a way that my daughters were not noticing or feeling loved by. It is about addressing my distant relationship with my own mother. I got this.
Hence I went out shopping and amidst my continual want to vomit, I finally found something that I could wear in “baby pink”…and I noticed something. Softer communication. A gentler way of being. A more intuitive way of living, rather than micro-managing and force-feeding the direction of my life. My relationship improved with my girls, because I consciously and probably sub-consciously chose a way that was less domineering, controlling, direct and confronting, to one that was more inclusive, considerate and gentler. I am incredibly grateful for these insights and new actions.
So interesting that this week I have been lusting after “baby pink”. It is a reminder for me to reignite and renourish myself in this “energy” and “way of being.” In seeking something in the shops – be it sweatshirt, scarf or pullover, I found nothing…..until today….I found it! Perfect….lingerie in baby pink and beautiful feminine floral, lacy and textured underwear to match – all for an incredible bargain I can hardly tell you about because of my excitement. I can’t wait to wear them and indulge myself in this colour and its effects!
What colour is your body lusting after today? Honour that lust.